Monday, June 14, 2010 . 1:21 AM

12th of June a memorable day for my family as we attend mei yi sis wedding, where i will be doing some small contribution dedicating the compose piece for her...Before hand already had a rehersal on thursday, however never knew that i would be so nervous, on the actual day itself..
My hands and my heart was tighten, as more and more people sitting down in the auditorium...I tried to calm my self down..

When i walked on to the stage as my frozen shaky hands, touches the cold white and black keys of the keyboard.. my hand is not listening to my commands,I knew it was the first time performing in the crowd, the thought of playing wrongly did not realli pull me down, as i noe the chances of playing wrongly is high, try to concentrate and play as smoothly as possible..haha I made quite a few mistakes, luckliy the crowd was busy clapping...kinda make it not so obvious..

That was for the first song...after which i calm down a bit..for the second song everyone was quiet and i played a smal solo part...while they signing the papers...i tried to pull my way through with some on the spot improvisation..haha...it was realli trying to make time move faster...

After everything, my heart was blessed with joy but i felt a bit dissapointed... Thou knowing the fact, i never wanted to give stress to myself and not to tell myself die die also must make it perfect...no mistakes while playing...That is not like me...my mind encourages me to learn from this experience...how it felt like playing on a stage...where everyone is looking, listening...to ur music..i am glad, i had this opportunity,

I will remember the moment when touch the first note...I appreciate the comments of others...and I realli hope to learn more from people...I want to be better in it...as i take a step at a time closer to my dreams...

Today met with guo xian and jess to watch A team. The movie was great..with were looking for kennie's present but drifted to yamaha playing guitar...as usual har i guess...where jess asked me to demo the song i played yesterday...I wasn't as nervous..but they keys were hard..lolz..so it requires more finger strength...which think about it...maybe a while more..i will change to a upright piano. hmm but that comes after working and working...

haiz...i have so much in my mind now...i never knew i will come so far....I hope i can get the support around me, telling me that i am nt jus day dreaming. I not aiming for the best in the world, i jus wana be a simple person..

hey ken thx for the gift from taiwan...
"行动是梦想的开始。。"