Monday, June 14, 2010 . 1:21 AM
12th of June a memorable day for my family as we attend mei yi sis wedding, where i will be doing some small contribution dedicating the compose piece for her...Before hand already had a rehersal on thursday, however never knew that i would be so nervous, on the actual day itself..My hands and my heart was tighten, as more and more people sitting down in the auditorium...I tried to calm my self down..
When i walked on to the stage as my frozen shaky hands, touches the cold white and black keys of the keyboard.. my hand is not listening to my commands,I knew it was the first time performing in the crowd, the thought of playing wrongly did not realli pull me down, as i noe the chances of playing wrongly is high, try to concentrate and play as smoothly as possible..haha I made quite a few mistakes, luckliy the crowd was busy clapping...kinda make it not so obvious..
That was for the first song...after which i calm down a bit..for the second song everyone was quiet and i played a smal solo part...while they signing the papers...i tried to pull my way through with some on the spot improvisation..haha...it was realli trying to make time move faster...
After everything, my heart was blessed with joy but i felt a bit dissapointed... Thou knowing the fact, i never wanted to give stress to myself and not to tell myself die die also must make it perfect...no mistakes while playing...That is not like me...my mind encourages me to learn from this experience...how it felt like playing on a stage...where everyone is looking, listening...to ur music..i am glad, i had this opportunity,
I will remember the moment when touch the first note...I appreciate the comments of others...and I realli hope to learn more from people...I want to be better in it...as i take a step at a time closer to my dreams...
Today met with guo xian and jess to watch A team. The movie was great..with were looking for kennie's present but drifted to yamaha playing guitar...as usual har i guess...where jess asked me to demo the song i played yesterday...I wasn't as nervous..but they keys were hard..lolz..so it requires more finger strength...which think about it...maybe a while more..i will change to a upright piano. hmm but that comes after working and working...
haiz...i have so much in my mind now...i never knew i will come so far....I hope i can get the support around me, telling me that i am nt jus day dreaming. I not aiming for the best in the world, i jus wana be a simple person..
hey ken thx for the gift from taiwan...
"行动是梦想的开始。。"
Sunday, May 9, 2010 . 9:44 PM
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Today's topic, to learn from others...and others will learn from you, also can be said as mutual respect to people, to show respect to people, people will show respect to you. setbacks are things that we stumbled on, to forget and understand the reason why we are standing here today. I am just worried, that my path is not a smooth journey to the goal.
my friend says, it is time we think about the future, be positive about it, be confident and setting ur mindset straight allows us to not go sideways. Actions is harder to achieve than the mind, but i have tried to make myself to acheive both, mentally and physically. I believe i am nt alone...but i also believe it takes more effort to do than to say. There are many troubles in life, yet there are so little things that we understand.
Currently preparing the song, for cousin's wedding...quite a challenge...I have played the piano for a year plus already. I remember i tell myself that after entering the unit, i will find sometime for learning, from a teacher, taking lessons.
However time doesn't seems to be in my favour. Now i am still learning alone, i am not a prodigy and like any other normal people, i am unable to breakthrough from my current state. I still like to configure my own world of melodies, only knowing every pieces, tells a different story. I wish i can be better in many things, but i am only average in most things..I am nt giving up, or else i will not start in the first place.
I understand that many friends out there, are kinda down. Time seems to be insufficient...Some are stress...some are tired with trainings..some are down with many things. That is why i always wana make every weekends meaningful to be able to meet ur out, watching movies talking cock...no matter where u are, what u are busy about....
..chill haha..nth compares to some craps and good time spend well with friends :)
till next time..
Sunday, February 21, 2010 . 12:23 AM
Met up with the poly gang...for L4D2...lolz...has been realli sometime since i saw kennie lolz..since he has been MIA for sometime..haha...heard from him that he will be going to thailand for excericse...all the best man...take care...
As usual, the good old days, jess and vicki came to join us for dinner... sadly arh soon and kennie have to leave for night events...got this veri interesting T shirt made by guo xian and Jess for birthday present..LOL haha was shocked that the front cover..was hand drawn, i thought it was some sort of printing...veri nicely drawn..haha thx man realli appreciate the effort..and of course... behind the shirt printed with this 2 words " 乐神 "dedeicated by guo xian....lol..haha
(O.O)'' thx man!
had a great day thank you...and take care...everyone..
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 . 9:35 PM
yeah i am back LOL...first of all happy 2010 haha i think the last post was about 2009 so HAHA yeah...lets welcome this year with my first post, yeah and so i have finish the 7 weeks of bmt in tekong when i thought life would be better...i kana post to some realli ulu camp in singapore...HAHA! life there isn't tat bad thou...getting used...any way HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone LOL...yeah...and happy birthday to me who turned 21 this year...There is a few dedications to make...first of all...
THx gerald...bixia kendrick uncle claron, jun jie for the camera...like it alot thank you veri much
THx all my frens varies from poly.... primary to my recent new added group of friends my blood brothers in the army LOL! haha thx for the wishes
REALLI APPRECIATE IT!
Hahaha promise to put up more photos, from the camera next time...
till next time good nite~
Saturday, November 21, 2009 . 10:55 AM
Lol haha pi seih pi seih, have received many messages from the previous tagboard, that this blog is dieing soon haha...Due to the fact that i was in tekong for national service, haha so pretty nth much to talk about, i am sure those who went thru it noes alot about it haha...Army wasn't that bad, learn pretty much things thou never got to do many physical stuff due to my pess condition..it was still nt that bad...made many nice and funny friends too..
Clear morning skies and starry night skies are the things u wun get to see in singapore, but get to view it in tekong...
haha and so i was locked in that place for 2 weeks...
2 weeks later...met up with everyone from the poly gang to celebrates jess's birthday...
here are the recaps...
haha almost all botaks...lolz...
haha suppose to have more pictures lolz...but haven receive all so these are the few...
we bought a veri nice and interesting shirt for jess haha.. after which...haha candy's birthday ...
lol...for the first time we went to her house and celebrate...it was her 21st birthday celebration haha..HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! lolz...everyone was there lolz...so i guess it was a grand union for all of us...
another 2 weeks and 2 days till POC....lolz...till than...
Friday, September 25, 2009 . 1:52 AM
I have been listening and listening and listening to japanese songs this few days...maybe going to become weeks...Nt sure if it will stretch to months...LOL...went to k box yesterday with gerald bixia and kendrick...Suddenly all of us isn't veri enthu about singing on that day....but we did sang many same songs, which i think tat was the reason why it became boring...My Enlistment date is approaching...22nd october... Most of my frens has went in...Some of the rest..preparing to go in...Anyway, I will be the last to enter. Haha thinking of it isn't any bad, but thinking of the future, makes me worried alittle, not sure if it is because i am too bored or wat, i start to worried and scared about, the path ahead...
Thou i noe, i always told myself, in the 2 years in army wait patiently and think carefully wat i wana study but I think i am more of a pessismistic person, sometimes can't get the bad thoughts of my mind...Keep afraid of the uncertainty that holds beyond my visions...
Mum used to say that i am person tat takes things for granted..lolz..
I am nt very confident in myself either...but i always willing to try....
I guess it is still too early to do anything yet...might as well..nt to worried much, making myself suffer more LOL...
25/9/2009 ---------2.02am
Surf the net...and went to ai otsuka's fan page..saw tis line
"You’re introduced to an instrument only once.
Your acquaintance is the chosen fate of the instrument.
Even if you have a painful experience—even if you become discouraged, Together you make it through, together you give it your all, together you smile.
Then sound is born.
What’s important is that you walk facing forward, without turning your back to it, and coming to an understanding. To never run away. And then the rest is history, forever deepening.
Life is only wasted when this isn’t realized early enough☆
Someone questioned, does passion has an expiry date?
Maybe...
But for me i hope it can last forever ~
Until next time !!!! O.O
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 . 12:02 AM
When to East Coast park with gerald bixia and claron...we had a LONG WALK..thx arh claron...lolz..but paid off with a nice meal at the hawker center...set down and chit chat...but half of the time i was staring off at that the sea...lolz...When home written this...
一片浪花打着海岸的声音
沙沙的刷白了心中那忧郁
忽然听见她微弱中的叹气
浅浅忘了心躺在泪滴
天空与大海慢慢合为一体
空气中那淡淡悲伤的气息
她的沉默也把我变得沉静
单调却有着深深的触及
感动了我~的你
突然莫名而来的感激
悲欢离合还要会学得更加用心
牵动了我~的你
沉溺在你迷人的声音
把我一切都掏出去，陶醉在您声音
lolz...just find it realli interesting so i blog this...COMMENTS are welcomed haha!
